I wish I could have fought him for you,” he said abruptly, looking back at me. His blue eyes were dark and earnest.
I smiled at him, touched.
“It wasn’t your fight, it was mine. But you won it anyway.” I reached out a hand, and he squeezed it.
“Aye, but that’s not what I meant. If I’d fought him man to man and won, ye’d not need to feel any regret over it.” He hesitated. “If ever –”
“There aren’t any more ifs,” I said firmly. “I thought of every one of them yesterday, and here I still am.”
“Thank God,” he said, smiling, “and God help you.” Then he added, “Though I’ll never understand why.”
Diana Gabaldon, Outlander (Chapter 25)